Draft #8




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Hey you…
It's been a while since we last spoke…
I know when we met yesterday, we had a little conversation.
But what I mean is "our conversation" like something that stay in the past.
I'm sorry if I can't get over you 100% yet.
That's because those sweet memories.
Do you remember about our first interaction? Our first day we met? Our first day we making some jokes? Our first time we're laughing?
The first time you let me come to your life?
The first time you holding my hands and kissed them?
Me here…  Just wanna confess a little silly thing that I've been hiding from you…
But, before that, let me remind you the day when I was confessing my feeling to you…
Do you remember what I said? 
That day I didn't say a reason why I fall in love with you…
So, this is the reason… The way you holding my hands and kissed them like a gentleman which made me fall for you
I know, right? Just a little silly thing. Maybe a stupid thing for you.
Do remember what you said to me?
You promised that you won't ever leaving me.
But, what did you do now?
You ditched me like a trash. So easily…
You said that you need your time to fix some errors.
You said that I'm your biggest mistake.
You said that you have your own life and you don't want me in your life anymore.
You said those words so easily…
But did you ever think what I feel? What's gonna happen with me after you do that?
I bet you're not.

And…  For the last thing…
In a way to end this message, I wanna say thank you… :)
Yeah, thanks…  A pure ‘thank you’ from my deepest heart…
Thank you for giving me those precious memories.
Thank you for taught me seeing the world in different perspectives.
Thank you for introducing me the sweetest side of love.
Thank you for showing me how's gentleman like (even in the end "gentleman" isn't suitable for you).
Thank you for made me feel the most hurtful pain of broken heart.
Thank you for disappointing me.
Thank you for made me suffer so badly.
Thank you for ruining my life.
Thank you for made me cry every night.
Thank you for made me like a miserable pathetic girl.
Thank you for making me demotivated.
Thank you for made wanna hurt and having an urge to killing myself.
Thank you for made me untrust love.
Thank you for made me having a trust issue.
Thank you for...... E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G.
Thank you :)

-R.N

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